Random Questions

First of all I guess i'll start this blog with a few questions about myself and who I am.

1.      If you could do one thing over in your life, what would it be?

I guess I would say my secondary school life again. During that time you develop as a person, make friends who would make you who you were going to be and so on. I never took full advantage of that time. I had few friends and as such never really developed proper social skills :S

2.      What makes you happy?

Sounds cheesy but my friends. Doing things with people who care about you just makes me smile. Even stranger is probably my need to do nice things for other people. I’m never fully happy unless i’m getting someone a present, helping them out or cheering them up.

3.      Looking back on your life, what do you regret?

I regret letting so many people take advantage of me physically and mentally. I would be a much more confident person if I was able to get away from all that.

4.      What do you believe to be true?

Nothing is true, everything is permitted.

5.      Who’s had the greatest influence on your life and why?

One of my closest friends Sean. He’s a person whos experiences in life, feelings in some respect and personality are really close to mine making him pretty relatable to me. When I met him I wasn’t in a very good place in my confidence or mind. His whole presence in a sense gave me motivation to finish my A-Levels and later to excel at my course. Although my confidence isn’t the greatest it has still made leaps and bounds all thanks to him.

6.      What are the qualities that you admire in your friends?

There’s many things but most important are kind, honest and trustworthy.

7.      What is the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do?

Having to say goodbye to my mum for the very last time.

8.      How would you describe yourself?

A crazy, weird person who worries far too much. I’m pretty nice I guess, I care quite abit about the people around me and i’m really stubborn, haha. I’m very quiet and have really low self esteem but I try my hardest in everything.

9.      What’s a secret ambition of yours?

I want to succeed in life. A main ambition would be to find a place for me on this planet to move and live happily, hopefully have a family of my own and have a successful career in a computing field.

10.  Who in your life would you like to thank and for what?

Again Sean for his friendship and constant support J

11.  What principles have guided your life?

Treat others as you would like to be treated.

12.  What makes you sad?

Being let down by people you trusted, also getting high hopes for things that don’t happen.

13.  What’s the most important lesson you’ve learned in your life?

Not all people in this world are nice. There are people who will take advantage, manipulate and hurt you if given the opportunity.

14.  How would you like to be remembered?

 A kind person who made a difference to someones life. Who tried their best for all around.

15.  What does love mean to you?

Caring about someone more than yourself.

16.  What do you still want to accomplish?

 I want to get a good job in an IT company.

17.  What’s one thing you’d like to change about yourself?

My appearance or else my constant worry.

18.  What event in your life would you like to live over and why?

The day I got into uni. I have never felt like i’ve ever accomplished something major until then.

19.  What are you avoiding?

Thinking about having to say goodbye.

20.  What are your best qualities?

My kind nature I guess.

21.  What’s the kindest thing you’ve done for someone?

I can’t really say :S Maybe the scrapbook i did for Seans birthday or else buying things for people to cheer them up when they’re down.

22.  What are the advantages of getting older?

You slowly become more mature and develop as a person.

23.  Who has been the most important person in your life? Can you tell me about him or her?

My mum. She was such a strong woman who had many tragic things happen to her and so many challenges to overcome but she did it all without every complaining. She was always so kind and supportive.

24.  What was the happiest moment of your life? The saddest?

Happy – getting into uni. Sad – My mum passing away.

25.  Who has been the kindest to you in your life?

Sean I guess :L *cheese*

26.  When in life have you felt most alone?

Losing my mum with absolutely no support from friends what so ever. Easily the loneliest i’ve ever felt.

27.  Do you have any regrets?

Yep

28.  What does your future hold?

I really don’t know and that fact scares me :/

29.  Is there anything that you’ve never told someone but want to tell someone?

Yep

30.  Where did you grow up?

Lurgan the shithole

31.  What was your childhood like?

It was pretty lonely to be honest. I had few friends and the ones I did have were fakes....

32.  How would you describe yourself as a child? Were you happy?

Pretty quiet and misunderstood. I was relatively until I realised quite a few things were missing.

33.  Did you enjoy school?

It was fair enough.

34.  What kind of student were you?

I was pretty creative and averagely academic.

35.  Are you still friends with anyone from that time in your life?

Nope

36.  Can you tell me about your first kiss?

Basically it was forced upon me and I still don’t consider i’ve had the first proper one yet.

37.  Do you believe in love at first sight?

You can get attracted yeah but not love.

38.  Have you experienced any miracles?

I’ve experienced 2 I can think of.

39.  Do you believe in God?

Yep

40.  Do you believe in the after-life? What do you think it will be like?

Yep. I’m not really sure.

41.  Do you think about dying? Are you scared?

Sometimes yeah but i’m not scared.